Posted by Goddess at 10:56PM, 12/Mar/08.
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Ok just need to vent out for a moment hear, tonight I was thinking about people that come in and out of our live's.

Is there a reason??!!

Not so long ago it felt like my whole world was falling apart, thing's with the father of my children could'nt get any worse, relationship's fell apart with my family, my mother and I stopped talking, close friend's of mine moved half way across Australia, and I felt so alone! I started suffering from anxiety and depression and cried day in day out!

I had not one soul that I felt I could trust, untill one day out of the blew so random I meet Miss X......lol

Miss X and I grew close over the internet, we would chat, talk on the phone and play poker till all hours of the early morning. That in itself was good for me, it did'nt take my problems away however it was enough to push them to the back of my head!

A week before Christmas I get a call of this amazing precious new friend of mine saying "I've booked a flight to the Gold Coast and I will be there at 9am" I almost died I had no idea she was coming and felt really nervous.....lol

Well the next morning Miss X arrived as she said and for me it was really weird as I never thought for one minute that I would meet her in the real world....lol

Well Miss X and i grew so close we spent so many night's sitting up chatting till the sun come up talking bout anything and everything. There was no limit's!

When it come to the day she had to leave for home we both started having panic attack's, so we cried for all of 10 minute's till we decided she was going to stay longer! And she did in that time we thought it was a great idea if she moved to the Gold Coast and live together.

So Miss X went home packed her stuff and lived with me for 1 month about 3 week's after Miss X moved up hear, I got a phone call of my mother saying she love's me and explained everything to me about why she stopped talking to me. And in my heart I forgave her!!

My mother had not been in my life at the same time Miss X was, and to my disappointment she never got to meet the woman that saved me, it would of been a day or so after I started talking to my mum again thing's fell apart with Miss X and I, and before I knew it she was on a plain heading to her old home town. For good reason's and we will alway's and forever be soul friends and I will love her unconditionally till the end of time, however it kill's me inside to think she is not hear, and the way we meet was just so weird and thing's happened so quick!

Did someone send me a earth angel????? I just believe that it's way to weird that she was in my life the whole time my family was not and then left less than a day after family issue's were resolved!!!

Ok I just went on and on but I guess I'm heartbroken and really love Miss X and miss her so much!!! Then it got me thinking doe's Miss X really exist or is she just a figment of my imagination???PMSL!!!

MISS X DO YOU EXIST???!!!