Posted by morpheus at 11:15PM, 28/Jul/07.
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Unaccustomed and uncomfortable as I am about talking about myself... here goes!

My 'call sign' morpheus comes from the movie The Matrix, where I identify with the character because my life purpose is freeing peoples minds. I love the complexity of the human condition and my studies into this fascinating topic have uncovered some very interesting insights. None of which are true by the way, so don't be thinking I am some kind of psychobabble nutcase. I am -  but it wont help you to understand where I am coming from to think that! I say none of this is true because it is just a belief I have and my beliefs are not necessarily true.

In my experience, most people I meet are in some type of pain. This pain comes from a variety of sources and is usually embedded deeply in the psyche. Its not a real problem, its just that when you finally get sick of the pain you start being open to looking for alternatives. Thats when I can be of assistance - not before.

Of course, I also live in pain so I know all about it. The trick is being honest and open enough with yourself to notice how you feel. I now know that it is possible to be happy and grateful all the time. I have met people who are. Circumstances do not dictate their quality of life. This is where I am heading and it is where anyone can live... if they choose. I does take work however and this scares off most people! You have to change you belief systems and this can be too big an ask for some because it mean admitting they have been 'wrong'. I however have no illusions about the validity of my beliefs. It all boils down to 'how wonderful do you want your life to be?'

So why am I on this site? Well, I am married. I love my wife. Our relationship however, like most peoples could be better. Trouble is my wife and I have different ideas on what a great relationship looks like. We desire different things from one another than what we are receiving. While we love and respect each other, we talk different languages. Also, we initially were attracted to one another because of, among other things, our mutual desire to not have children. As I have now resolved the personal issue I had on this topic my ideas have changed. My wife has yet to change her mind. An impass. I used to have very little time for children, often citing 'I used to go to school with them - they're horrible.' Recognising where this unfortunate mindset came from, I dealt with the underlying issue and now love children and would love to father at least one. This will not happen with my wife.

This is starting to sound like a counselling session! Actually, I am just desperate for affection and intimacy. This aspect has been absent for far too long. These are not high on my wifes list of requirements and I am not about to tell her they should be.

So here I am. I probably sound like an intense and serious person after this rambling. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am light-hearted, fun loving and do not take myself seriously at all. I have a dry sense of humour and am always up for mischief! Its just that I am passionate about leading a happy and fulfilled life, and helping others to do the same. This takes dealing with all the garbage we carry around in our subconscious.