Looking back
Have you ever had a look back on your life and thought "Wow!" I had one of those moments recently when realising what a colourful life I've led. I mean, I've worked on cattle stations for a few years, I'Âve spent a few years pursuing various science courses, I've spent some time in amateur theatre, I've gone through my gaming-addiction phase, I'Âve gone through the swinger scene, I've volunteered for the Sex Party (after I told myself I wouldn'Ât get involved with any political party), and now I find myself travelling Australia pursuing a hospitality career, and all this from someone who used to be the model Sunday school boy. It's just something I didn't quite appreciate at the time. I even remember thinking "ÂI might struggle here, women often say they like a man who can hold a conversation, yet my life is so dull I have nothing to talk about"Â. Yet recently, I've been chatting in a few BBW support groups (for those who don't know me, I have a thing for bigger women) and I found myself often saying "Done that. Done that. Done that. Knew a guy like that....etc." It just made me stop and think about how much I've experienced in my life so far. I'ÃÂm sure there's plenty of you that have done more exciting things in your lives and there's plenty of things I haven't done yet. I've never seen snow, I've never been overseas, I've never had a threesome, I've never had a proper girlfriend, hopefully I still have time to experience these things. But it's just one of those moments that help give you a new perspective on where you stand in this life.
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I have moments where I look back
I was the first in my large extended family to graduate from university
the second to do a post graduate degree
I grew and birthed three amazing human beings who I relish in watching become the very special people I know they are
I've developed a career for myself
Carved my own place in the world
I've loved
I've grieved
I've lost loves
I've lost loved ones
I've stood up for my believes and been ripped down
I've been in front of a large audiences and I've remained behind the scenes for others to flourish knowing my role in their place
I've been happy, I've been sad, I've be elated and devastated
Ultimately I have lived and I have so much more to do. Not a moment of regret in my life.... Mistakes I have made for sure but nothing that I will allow to bury me... at least not for long.
I've taken a few reality slaps in life and I know I have many more to come as well. I've got a fantastic life to live and I'm going to enjoy the best of moments and move beyond the worst of moments.