Wow!!
What a ride the last two or three months have been for me, particularly in terms of my sex life. For someone who was struggling for most of last year to find anyone that was interested, everything just seems to have blossomed. It almost seems everytime i log on to ff, or another site, or go out anywhere I've always manged to find someone new without really having to put too much effort into it. I sometimes feel a little bad about this, as I know how hard it can be for most guys to find a woman that's interested, yet I'm starting to lose track of the number of women that want to jump my bones...kinda feels a little selfish.
The one thing I am still missing though, is that one primary lover, or life partner, someone I can call my own. For most of last year, I was persuing a particular lady that I felt filled this role for me perfectly, however in the last few months I have learnt that she doesn't feel the same about me. I hold nothing against her, and we are still good friends, but it still has left a big hole in my life. She was so perfect for me that I thought "if i don't love her, I don't love anyone", which now scares me, will i never actually experience true love?
But is this necessarily a bad thing? After all, I do have a number of women who seek me not just for sex, but for comfort, company, advice or just a shoulder to cry on and they provide the same for me. I give them a sense of self-worth, and in doing so provides me with self-worth. Although a few of them I know will never be lovers, we just don't quite match, there are one or two that could quite possibly be a good match for me. I'm a little hesitant to choose though, as i think it would be unfair to choose someone "by default" or out of desperation.
All in all, I am really happy with my current situation. Perhaps it is just a matter of enjoying the ride while I can, and to re-evaluate my own perspective of myself and how I fit in to the world around me.
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(Private Profile) - 03 Jun, 12
-I have to agree with the advice above, be honest, just let things be, but most importantly, just be yourself!!
Love is always lurking around in life and generally it is always going to appear at a time you don't expect it.
Good to see things are going well, enjoy the ride ;P
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(Private Profile) - 03 Jun, 12
-Ditto both Bitty and Kezza's advice! :)
The right person will come into your life when you least expect it...
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(Private Profile) - 03 Jun, 12
-Enjoy the ride my friend and remember as long as you are open and honest with these ladies, you are not being selfish nor are you hurting any one darlin'... Take care me friend!!! xox
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(Private Profile) - 02 Jun, 12
-I think when you find love.....you don't find it....it finds you
It happen when you least expect (yes I know sounding cliched, but it's true)
You'll know when you have it again.....just enjoy your time
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I agree with the advice that everyone has given ... you just need to be ready for it and be prepared for it to happen when you least expect it ... i was once told from my great grandmother that you must love yourself unconditionally before you are able to let another love you ... you are a good person xx